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The world is a complicated place

In reflection on January 31, 2013 at 09:18

A sad truth, but also a gem of an insight:

In some ways saying a man is gay is like saying he is white. That is
meaningless. A red-haired Scot is white, but so are Armenians, Arabs and
Italians. There is a wide range of physical types and appearances all
included in the white race.

As far as I can tell, most gay men aren’t effeminate. Most gay men aren’t
particularly creative or ultra butch. I know some happily married gay
men. I know some men who fall madly in love with anyone who has a cock.
Others are attracted to only one man. The world is a complex and
complicated place. The saddest situation is when you find a gay man who is
afraid of sex. They had all the desires and needs, but they had no way to
fulfill those desires.

I think they are similar to girls from good and proper families in the
Victorian period. They wanted to marry and have a family, but they were
taught to abhor sex and sexual relations. Having been taught that sex was
degrading and dirty, they found it impossible to have a complete life.

(quoted from author Bob Archman)

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How my first GA application failed

In hack, reflection on January 28, 2013 at 12:00

Last week I implemented my first “useful” genetic algorithm (GA) to solve a mapping problem. Lesson learned: don’t mistake “good solution according to the algorithm” with “good solution to the problem.”

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It can’t be wrong if it feels so good

In hack, lecture, reflection on January 7, 2013 at 12:00

I did it again.

It’s like self-gratification: can’t hurt anyone, reliable pleasure, kept me busy for a while, pleasant relief afterwards.

Really, I ought to have been working on new, abstract, sexy-sounding research directions to advance my career.

Instead, I spent a half week programming and engineering. And I learned a damn lot about myself in the process.

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